After a week of complete immersion in a world (LA) where I didn’t have to hide one ounce of all that love for Rob that I have, I’m having a really difficult time bouncing back into that sleek, put together woman who has a crush on a dude five years younger then her but you could never tell it from the outside. I fear it’s oozing out, slowly but surely, and people are going to catch on.
Why, you may ask?
Australian? Oh come on now! Aren't you well versed in your accents like me?
A conversation with some female co-workers about the actors who play in the Twilight movies became dangerously close to disastrous. Apparently, one of them watched the Jimmy Kimmel special, which was kind of shocking. And she said, “I didn’t realize Edward was Australian.”
And I lost my composure for that one half sec…
I said, “Rob is British!” And you know how people’s voices go up slightly when they are distressed, yeah, mine did that.
She responded with, “Who’s Rob?”
::facepalm::
And I regained it. I took deep breaths, counted down from 10 to 1 in my head, and then I was able to breath again. I said, “Well, it’s the actor’s name. I subscribe to EW, so I know all these things.”
Disaster averted.
And then, THEN, my long lost cousin that I am now friends with on Facebook (cause duh, that’s the purpose of Facebook right) makes a comment about how much she loves Remember Me. Hmmm… what? Does the Rob love run in the family? It has to cause let’s face it, it seems Rob fans are the only ones that liked Remember Me.
I came this close to telling her. To sending that FB message that would out me forever. I had it all typed up… then deleted it.
Now I’m scared. Everything Rob-related keeps falling at my feet, just begging me to say something. Can I keep it in that much longer? Can I really maintain my cool with my other co-worker keeps going on about how much hotter “Jacob” is then “Edward”? Cause you know, they don’t know any of the actor’s names. And P.S. woman, you are like 38, thinking Jacob is hot is CREEPY! Rob is okay cause at least he’s been over 18 for longer then a few months.
My cousin is going to post this still in my time line. I just KNOW it!
This little secret gets harder and harder. Will the co-workers soon realize that the Forbes magazine sitting on my desk an AWFUL long time is sitting there due to the fact that Rob is on the cover? Will they catch me one day with a full on screen shot of Rob in a tux on set? Will they finally figure out the time line of my vacation based on the release of a certain movie?
Will my cousin start really looking hard at my “interests” and see it? Will she make a comment about how much she can’t wait for Bel Ami, and I completely lose it?
Are you in the closet about your Rob love? Have you been caught yet? How many times have you thought about coming out, then changing your mind?
